Testing, testing....can you read me?

Well, the time has come. I am getting rid of cable/internet until our move. So, as a fairly new Blogger who wants to continue I was saddened by this.....until wait.... I thought of my phone. They have some kind of app for just about everything else....let's look: YES!! Blogger for my phone. INSTALLED! I nearly guarantee there will be no long posts but at the Two SENNsational Ladies adventures will continue.

Tough Decisions

How do you decide to go from a nice person to a person on a defensive strike? Heck, for that matter, how do you decide that what you thought was being a nice person is, in all actuality, allowing a person to continue to walk all over you?

As I write this I want so badly to have the answers drop out of the sky in yes or no form. That is not happening. I have begun to think about a no contact order (a form of a restraining order) against Martin and have also begun to research the contempt of court charges that I was advised to file a while ago. The reason for all of this is harassment that is not stopping and his inability to do anything that he is supposed to do to step up and take care of our daughter.

It saddens me really. How can a man put so little importance on his child that he can't even begin to be responsible for her.

As I write this I ask that anyone reading it would keep me in your thoughts and prayers as the road I am travelling continues to be one that I would rather not be on. I know that my Lord continues to strengthen me. I also know that he is in control and protects me. Those things bring a peace that is amazing.

Love to you all!~

Lessons Learned

Sometimes it is so hard to be mom. To be the one to teach the lessons in life that are hard to learn. Today was one of those days. As I posted earlier today was a day of celebration for Paityn's birthday. We had kids from the neighborhood and one from daycare all here. Now, my daughter is used to being around lots of kids at one time. She usually does very well, but as the day wore on I was sad to see that the friend from daycare was somewhat being ignored and was enjoying hanging out with me more then with the kids.

This evening Paityn and two of the kids were outside playing in our front yard. I noticed that Louie had not barked lately, which he frequently does when the kids are playing. So, I went out looking for them only to find my front yard empty and Paityn no where to be found. She was at the end of the street at someones house that she had not asked to go to. Now I understand that kids get distracted and she was at a home that I totally trust her to be at. However, she has done this three times in the last two weeks.....here comes the hard lesson to learn. I called Paityn down to our house and told her that all the kids except the one from daycare needed to go home right then and they could not have a sleep over. After several minutes of making a scene in the front yard....don't know who she would get the dramatic side from.... she came in. I called her into my room as she still had company over. I told her that I was done tracking her down. We have a "checking in" rule for a reason. She is not allowed to change plans what so ever unless she checks in. When she doesn't do that it forces me to have to take other measures. I also told her that I was sad to see that the friend from daycare had spent much of the day on her own.

Here comes the oh so proud mom moment. Paityn pulled herself together. She spent some time getting jammies on and calming down only to return to the living room where her friend was at. She looked right her and apologized for ignoring her for most of the day. She said that she was very sorry and that she knew it was wrong. The friend said not to worry, she was used to being alone since she has no siblings. Paityn looked at her and said, "no, I can be a better friend then that and I am sorry I didn't today."

Point to my long drawn out story. There are times in this life when i feel that i am for sure doing everything possible to mess up my child. I felt horrible when I sent the other kids away. However, as I listened to the heart felt apology and explanation of what a friend should be coming from my daughters lips I was again reminded that these hard moments have their reward and I will probably not be lucky enough to witness many of them, but I can at least know that they are there.

Birthday Bash and Craziness

So, I decided that this summer must be the summer of complete craziness for Paityn and I. We at any given time can be driving between Greeley, Loveland and Fort Collins in one day and often find that if we are home we have at least four extra kids in tow. I love the joy of hearing a bunch of young girls laughing.

Today we are celebrating Paityn's birthday. Now, I tend to go overboard on this day. I always have a big get together, cake, food, games (or sidewalk paint) and a lot of loved ones around. This year with so many changes taking place in our life we decided to just keep it simple. A few of our close friends are coming over and the neighborhood kids will be here to celebrate. Cupcakes and lemonade.... hard to do when I am used to spending the whole day preparing.

Last night I took four girls to the Centerra shopping center to go and just enjoy some time together and to watch the "Karate Kid" movie on the big blow up screen. talk about amazing fun. As I sat there I realized just how mature my little girl is coming and how blessed I am to have her in my life. Do plans ever go as they should when there are five girls involved...heck no, but I guarantee on the way home all of them were talking about how they wanted to do it again. I also believe that I have more knowledge of Justin Bieber then any one person should have now.

Please know that I am aware that none of pictures are uploaded with this post. This is where the craziness comes in. I know that I keep thinking of things to blog about and I don't do them because I just don't have time to do them as I wish I could. So, that being said, I am going to start doing the writing when I think of it and I can add the pictures later. Maybe look for one post of just pictures.

Change

Who ever said that change is bad? I am curious because the last year has been filled with so many changes that it isn't even funny. Have some of them been bad, YES!!! However, how can you not be thankful for some of the changes that have happened? How can you not be excited when you know that God has a new plan for your life. So, This whole blog is Two Sennsational ladies AND...the and was all about not eve knowing exactly what God has in store for us. I believe that we are on a new path and I am excited to see what exactly God is doing in our lives. Just a little thought to share!

Whirlwind of Activity

So, I have to begin by apologizing because I have not even started and I feel like this is going to be a blog of babbling. BUT, then again, I am Jen Senn and tend to do that. I guess if you are a close enough friend to be reading this, then that is something that should be expected.

In so many ways I feel like the last three weeks have been a whirlwind of activity for Paityn and I. I sit here now and wonder where exactly do I begin. I guess I should start with a quick update. My divorce is final, Martins criminal trial is over and I am officially Jen Senn again. so many more details for all of that then I care to post I just know that it feels good for my heart, my head, my bloodsugars and for Paityn to have it all over with.

What do spaghetti and waffles have to do with each other . Now, there are a few of you who received an email from me about this so please just bare with me. I recently listened to a broadcast of focus on the family that spoke to my heart and mind in ways that I can not even begin to explain. Now, I already said that I tend to babble and I hope that this will come as an explanation of that. Spaghetti and waffles....what do they have in common. So, the point of this broadcast was communication between a man and a woman. The woman's brain is like spaghetti while the mans brain is like a waffle. We woman tend to start on one topic and can go from one thing to another without missing a breath. Our topics all wind together and touch in one way or another....like a plate of spaghetti. A mans brain is like a waffle. They have lots of things in their head but none of them touch and can not be intertwined together. If you want to change subjects, you need to change boxes. Now, the reason for this being an "OH MY GOODNESS" moment for me is that my problem is that I don't keep the spaghetti in my brain, I let it spew out of my mouth. I want to say by no means does this epiphany mean I am going to stop being me, but it does mean that I at least know why I do what I do. If you would like to learn more about the spaghetti and waffles podcast please let me know. I would LOVE to share this with anyone who has a person of the opposite sex (relationship or friend or even a coworker/boss) in their life.

Now, moving on.... literally. Paityn and I are going to be moving back to Loveland. Let me tell you that I am so tired of listening to the people I work with ask me why Loveland. I have to say that for the first time in years I feel like I am going home. I will be moving back to the south side of town that I know so well. I went this past week and filled out all the paperwork to be considered an actual applicant. I have never lived in an apartment complex and although I am a bit leery about several different sides of this, I know that there is a reason we are where we are and this is the only place I feel peace about living. My ideal situation will someday be a duplex or townhouse where we have a garage and a private yard, but as I said, God has a reason. I was pleased to receive a call this past week from the complex telling me that I am next in line for whatever apartment that I want. They did have two becoming available for June however they are both units that do not meet our needs. Although I am excited to begin this new adventure, I also know that I need to stick to my needs and be patient. I will be sure to keep all updated.

I have decided to end this post as my next topic is much more serious and I would like to someday look back and know just how much it meant to me.

Can't wait to see what God has in store next for us TWO SENNSATIONAL LADIES.....

The Long And Short Of It.....

Ok, so, it is probably absolutely ridiculous to say this but I cried over hair today. Yes, tears due to hair. In the past years I have listened to so many people compliment the beautiful long hair that Paityn had. She has gone to great lengths to convince her Dad and I that it was time to change that and allow her to go short. So, you can imagine my surprise when we finally decided it was time to start letting her be who she wants to be (within reason for an almost 8 year old.) I am guessing you can imagine where this is leading to. Earlier today Paityn Rylee Saldana had 14 inches of her hair cut off. Yes, 14 inches. We were so lucky that she was able to do a "Locks of Love" donation. Locks of Love is an organization who makes wigs for cancer patients out of hair that has been cut. So, I watched as they braided her hair and cut it off. I have to say that although I was not keen to this idea before, it really is adorable on her now. She is SO excited. I can't wait to see what all kinds of fun ways to fix her hair we can come up with now.